Have you ever wondered what would happen if you woke up one day and did everything you were supposed to do? "Perhaps that's the answer?", you're thinking. If I just did everything I'm supposed to be doing, all my problems will go away and life will be rainbows forever. Well maybe, I wouldn't actually know but anything IS possible.
These are the things I think I should be doing EVERY DAY: 1. An hour of exercise 2. Another hour of either yoga or tai chi 3. Juice with my juicer 4. Acupuncture or acupressure 5. Meditate 6. Read 7. Write 8. Do something creative 9. Hike or do something outside 10. Stay positive *All of these every day These are on top of everything I have to do: work, assist my son, eat, rest, chores, etc. This list will probably be a constant for the rest of my life. Although in today's reality, I do perhaps one on the list daily and then an extra one or two on the weekends, IF I'm ambitious. I think most people can relate to the dichotomy of wanting and doing. Life is the canvas that we are painting so there is always more room on the canvas for growth and beauty. Is this psychological or physical? The two are so intricately connected that sometimes it can be difficult to tell. It's all about how much energy you have and what you do with that energy. If I happen upon those rare times where I have had two or three descent nights of sleep, my energy gets up to a level that it would likely be normally, where I could get all those things done on my list and more, at least on a weekend day. But if I haven't slept or my sleep was deplorable, then my energy goes down to between 1 and 50%. If it gets below 20%, all I'm really good for is laying in bed, which is actually the case more often than I want to admit. The irony is, all the things on my list would give me more energy, if only I had the energy to do them. It would be nice if modern medicine were more holistic and they tried harder to figure out medical problems like this. I talked to my doctor about some other issues that the sleep was causing and she said that there was no point into looking into those until we get my sleep under control, yet as I said, pharmaceuticals are a bandaid, but I'm not giving up. My doctor is interested in seeing me get help. She actually recommend a hypnotherapist but I can't afford to go to the hypnotherapist because they charge $100 a session and I'm not making enough to pay my bills because my body doesn't let me work more. I'm sure there are many more holistic avenues I could take with more money as well. It's a Catch 22. Sunday I took my break and Monday I felt great. Then on Tuesday, I got up early, meditated and did my exercises and I felt terrible for the rest of the day. That's what it's like in the beginning steps of discipline. That's what keeps us from taking the next step, keeps people down, under achieving, depressed, over weight, held back from success, etc. It's the pain of that first step, because let's not blow sunshine, the second step sucks even worse. But FUCK that shit! I'm just waiting for the right time, when I no longer have to go to a job and I therefore will not have to spend all my energy in the morning getting enough sleep and getting ready for work, then going to work, working at work and then going home from work and preparing for my next day of work by taking care of myself, hopefully relaxing and sleeping. How is that living anyway? But don't stop. Take another baby step. It's worth it. So my escape plan continues...Step 1 - Escape the corporate world. In the meantime, back to my list.
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