What is the KEY to dealing with a chronic condition? Ideally one should prevent any condition from becoming chronic, but unfortunately most people can't or won’t see the seriousness of it till it is severe. Yes, an ounce of prevention really is worth at least a pound of cure, perhaps years. Preventative medicine FTW! So if you’re reading this and you don’t have a chronic condition, good for you! Keep in balance: eat well, sleep well, exercise, meditate, do yoga, etc., and you’ll likely have good health for a long while. But for those of us with chronic conditions, it’s going to take a BIT more effort. Illness begins with a disharmony of mind, body, heart or spirit; when we get off track or when we avoid our True course. If you’ve gotten so far off track that you don’t know your way back, do not despair, for you’ve not really gotten off track, you’ve only opted for the long way home. If you’re ready to make the journey back, then the ask yourself, “What is the shortest distance between two points?” In other words, where did the disharmony begin? To this day I dread telling people about my problem. I mean what problem? Which problem? I’ve grown tired of people not understanding and just looking upon me with confused pity, so when I try to explain my situation I just summarize it to “my sleep problem,” which is how it manifested. Yet to this day, people still try to give me advice about sleeping. This is well intentioned but then I try to explain to them, “It’s not really about SLEEP.” I mean if I have a corruption of the soul, you can’t really cure that with Chamomile tea or warm milk. So while I’ve made s few strides and my sleep has somewhat improved, the days I don’t sleep take just as much of toll on me as when I didn’t sleep every night. Without understanding the spiritual component, there is no way to understand chronic disease and that’s more than surface conversation. So knowing that the reality of the topic is generally too broad for conversation and most people have little spiritual understanding, I try to stay within the scope of physicality and biology and so I say, “It’s not really about SLEEP anymore. That’s more of the cause than the effect. It’s way beyond that at this point. Now I’m dealing with the long-term effects of not sleeping for many many many years (or being untrue to myself for as many years)." So at this point, healing my sleep won’t cure the problem, as if there’s just one. Modern medicine doesn’t address this. Their cure was sleeping pills. They don’t know how to begin to grasp the complexity of this, despite the fact that elderly folks tend to have more energy and more of a life than I do. Despite the living in hell, the pain of lack of energy so deeply that it feels like you’re barely alive. Despite my complete inability to function in society as a productive person and don’t bother trying to get disability for anything like this, it’s not covered. When I did try, the lady in charge asked me why I wasn’t taking more sleeping medicine, as if sleeping medicine were a cure, as if it wasn’t killing me and destroying my faculties. It will suffice to the general public to refer to my original problem, which has brought on and been complicated by chronic fatigue and adrenal fatigue, which sounds so arbitrary and narcissistically grandiose, considering all the fatal chronic conditions such as cancer or some other painfully terminal illness. But don’t you see, that’s the next step. This is an intervention. It’s the step after prevention and before hospice. I’m in the fight for my life. Not to belittle the efforts of those with cancer or the like, for this blog is for you. This blog is for all of us who are in the fight of our lives. The reality is, I don’t have insurance so I don’t have traditional health care. (The reasons why are too political for my taste and pity stories bore me, so I’ll spare you.) So I don’t know if I have cancer or something worse not mentioned. When I told my physician before I quit my job, that I literally felt like I was dying, I was sent to a specialist and a radiologist to assess the possibility of such. Yet true to the medical system, the means did not serve the end and would be a long drudgerous journey that would take months, years, time, energy and money that I don’t have, not to mention a lymph node or so. So that leaves my health care where it belongs, in my hands and I chose not to have cancer. In that frame of mind, it’s never too late for preventative medicine, but in the advanced stages of chronic illness you need to take that mind-set and step it way the heck up. This is my journey back to health. It’s not to belittle whatever anyone has to do for their own health journey but to show all of us on a healing path, that there is a way back home. So you think you're a Romeo
Playing a part in a picture-show Take the long way home Take the long way home 'Cause you're the joke of the neighborhood Why should you care if you're feeling good Take the long way home Take the long way home But there are times that you feel you're part of the scenery All the greenery is comin' down, boy And then your wife seems to think you're part of the furniture Oh, it's peculiar, she used to be so nice When lonely days turn to lonely nights You take a trip to the city lights And take the long way home Take the long way home You never see what you want to see Forever playing to the gallery You take the long way home Take the long way home And when you're up on the stage, it's so unbelievable, Oh unforgettable, how they adore you, But then your wife seems to think you're losing your sanity, Oh, calamity, is there no way out, oh yeah Ooh, take it, take it out Take it, take it out Oh yeah Does it feel that your life's become a catastrophe? Oh, it has to be for you to grow, boy When you look through the years and see what you could have been Oh, what you might have been, If you'd had more time So, when the day comes to settle down, Who's to blame if you're not around? You took the long way home You took the long way home Took the long way home You took the long way home You took the long way home, so long You took the long way home You took the long way home, uh yeah You took the long way home Long way home Long way home Long way home Long way home Long way home Long way home -Richard Davies, Roger Hodgson (Supertramp)
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November 2018
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