Perhaps it was naive to think I'd be instantly better, or at least better by now. I see now that it's going to take a long time to get to the health level I want to be at. People ask me how great I feel not having to work anymore, but while I'm extremely grateful, I really don't feel good enough to enjoy it...yet. I still feel really bad about 4 out of 7 days of the week. But on the up side, that does mean I average about 3 good days a week. So I may be getting better, even if I don't really notice it. I've definitely taken the first steps. It’s amazing how many health issues emerge after getting off the medication: bladder issues, gynocolgical issues, decreased immune system, overall pain... I’m not even sure at this point what influence the medication had over these things but not sleeping intensifies everything and your body doesn’t heal if it doesn’t sleep. One thing of particular note is that I don't have any energy for anyone else. I don't call my family, I don't write and forget about driving. I don't go out with my friends, I don't visit my son or the cat. I'm sure some of them have had their feelings hurt at some point but I hope no one takes it personally. Many changes have begun. First, I stopped using anti-perspirant due to the possibility of aluminum toxicity and/or at the very least, depriving my body of the natural way it expells toxins. Yes I sweat allot and yes I have body oder and those are natural consequences I can live with, considering my body is a toxic wasteland that needs purging. Thus begins my journey of detoxification. Over the past year, I've aged twice as fast as I normally do. This includes some type of "age spots" under my eyes. According to Chinese Medicine, under the eyes is the area for the kidney, which makes sense that I need allot of detoxification. It's been approximately one month that I've left my job, been off the medication and have been detoxifying myself and the coloration of the dark spots under my eyes has already decreased by half. www.sacredlotus.com/go/diagnosis-chinese-medicine/get/4-pillars-looking-tcm-diagnosis So far my detoxification regimen consists of water, apple cider vinegar and Daily Detox tea. I cut sugar and artificial foods and processed foods out long ago. I know it's time to step it up a notch. My friend Eric recommends a macrobiotic diet and the Gerson detox diet. I'm mulling it over since I haven't decided what would be best for me yet. I found that the macrobiotic diet is mostly vegetarian, where I have to eat red meat sometimes due to my anemia and supplementation is not enough. Just over a week ago I barely had energy to talk and I felt like I was dying and needed to be in the hospital and didn't know what was going on and then the next day I had my period and I realized my body was using all my iron and so I had to increase my iron intake and meat for the week. Cutting out meat is not something my body can handle at this point but changing the diet is on my radar. I've completed Phase 1 (aka - getting of the medication), re-establishing my neurotransmitters with the supplements my naturopathic friend, Maria, helped me get. It was worth it. It helped me get through the most difficult part. This article talks about sleeping pill addiction. I don't really consider it a psychological addiction for myself, when your body needs to sleep but whatever, the result is the same. www.addictioncenter.com/sleeping-pills/withdrawal-detox/ The biggest change I've made since getting off the sleep medication is quitting the harsher caffienes. I was drinking coffee but then my body seemed to resist it and I couldn't drink it for awhile. Then I switched to organic Rockstars, which my body seemed to tolerate easier but then I began to notice that I could barely drink one without feeling like my heart was strained and my body was having great difficulty assmilating it. Now those are addicting. Caffiene is my drug of choice. So I stopped the Rockstars, eventhough the organic ones with real sugar are more tolerable and went back to coffee, but had to start adding sweetener to it. NOW, I've weaned myself down to tea! It will be black tea for a while. Here is an article to help someone get off sleep medication. It's a bit simple and probably not for someone whose insomnia is so severe but still important notes: www.wikihow.com/Break-Away-from-Sleeping-Medication Right now I average about 6 hours a night. I'm the type of person who needs a minimum of 8. An 8 hour night seems far away right now. I'm not even sure what my body is doing about sleep. I go to bed at night, still waking repeatedley, with a lighter sleep and then get up, at least once, by 8 am, then to take my morning nap or as I like to call it, "second sleep", where upon I get my real sleep. It's during the hours of 8 - 12 (not the entire time of course) that I get the best sleep. That's the sleep I was missing when I was working because I didn't have time for second sleep, hence the use of medication for a more continuous deeper sleep. Dear Body, what the heck are you doing? According to Astrology, the time for intensified purging is approaching. So perhaps, I can utilize that to accelerate the healing process. The pre-shadow of Mercury Retrograde is upon us. Be well. gostica.com/astrology/full-moon-in-gemini-on-december-13-a-spiritual-perspective/ www.aeprilsastrology.com
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